Vulnerability
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i’ve been doing a lot of reflecting this week. As always, i wasn’t sure what topic to write about this month. I thought about my past relationships and the person i was before entering the BDSM lifestyle. Then my thoughts traveled to vulnerability. Vulnerability has a few definitions that could make a P/person hesitate to see it in a good light. When it comes to the BDSM lifestyle, it’s about being open, breaking barriers, and it is needed in a D/s relationship to facilitate and strengthen the bond. It’s about trusting the Dominant that you serve to see your weaknesses, your thoughts, and to be fully exposed.
Vulnerability requires you to bare your full self to Him/Her. It exposes the relationship to a closeness like no other, it allows you to see where there is room to grow, in return it allows you to heal from difficult situations. Being vulnerable is not easy at all. you have to release things that have hurt Y/you and have caused Y/you to stay in Y/your comfort zone. Childhood trauma, difficult relationships from the past, anything that has had a negative impact over Y/your life. i didn't feel i could be myself in the past. i wasn't comfortable with being open. Being vulnerable was not something practiced or talked about.
i kept myself hidden because i didn't feel i would be accepted. I hid a lot of my struggles which caused me to remain stagnant. i couldn't heal or pretty much grow from my past. i had barriers up and was ready to run from anything that forced me to be open. i was “one foot in and one foot” out in my past relationships. i bottled up everything and threw it on the back burner. It wasn't until being Owned by the Dominant i'm owned by now, for me to see how rewarding being vulnerable is. Being vulnerable opens room for growth, openness, and healing from past hurt. There was so much trauma i had to heal from. W/we have a bond that i cherish. It opened up the room for good flowing communication, trust, and honesty. He knows me better than i know myself. i still have struggles that i need and do work on. Every day is a growing process for me and i'm thankful for being able to do such.
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